Things have been getting really stressful lately. I'm working and going to school what seems to be ALL THE TIME! It's finally starting to get to me and I feel like all of the relationships in my life are starting to suffer. I'm doing my best to keep calm and carry on...a motto I found in 2010 when I was Miss Czech-Slovak US (I'd like to think it was before it gained popularity and everyone has a different version of it...if it's not true just don't burst my bubble. HA!)
I've been praying and doing my best to make some decisions in life and just can't seem to make a decision that feels right. My husband has been wonderful in supporting me in many ways in my decision to go back to school. He was right along with me when I decided this is what I wanted to do and helped me jump in with both feet and go for it. A few weeks before our wedding I quit my job and told them I was going back to school. (I agreed to come back for a few weeks to help out after our honeymoon as someone else quit around the same time.) I didn't even tell my parents until a week or 2 before I started school, to which my mom flipped out, wondering why I quit a great job and decided to do this after I had just graduated in May with a degree I thought I wanted to use in life. I started back at Best Buy as I figured it would be easier to go back to a job I already knew than to learn a new one on top of everything at school.
I'm at school for 30 to 35 hours per week and then working anywhere from 5 to 30 hours so my time is limited. I know I couldn't have done this by myself and I know that many people would tell me I'm crazy and to keep the good job I have because we all have bad days at work. I'm lucky that he understood and supported my decision. Brad has picked up the slack at home and keeps up on laundry and yardwork on top of paying bills and any other odd job around the house. I think we're both working 2 full time jobs. I know that I should quit my part time job at Best Buy for the sake of sanity but it's so scary for me. I'm a very independent person and I already feel very guilty for going back to school and causing stress with finances and well...everything in our lives because of the time and energy I spend everywhere else. I'm a very independent person and I like being able to go out to eat here and there and buy I new pair of shoes when I want to but is that worth the stress? It's almost holiday season at Best Buy and it's only going to get worse! Could I do enough with my Scentsy Family business to make up for the job if I focused a little more time on that?
Have any of you ever went through something similar to this? I'm so scared to quit and regret it but I'm equally scared to not quit and keep missing out on everything that means anything to me.
On another note...I had a friend ask me when the last time that I took time for ME was the other day. He stopped and waited for my response...and I couldn't respond. He said when have you turned off your phone and just read a book or drank a coffe and just people watched? I had no idea...not a single example to share with him. I'm truly going to try this. I'm going to find 20 or 30 minutes of ME time and not let anyone else disrupt. I think I'm going to try taking a walk with my headphones on and just get away from everyone. Double the benefit! :)
